There's Gotta Be Something More (Than Crying On the Way to and At Work!)

So on my way to work this morning this song came on and besides the fact that I LOVE Sugarland, I just KNEW I was going to start crying... This song COMPLETELY described my situation this morning and pretty much the rest of my day...

"Monday, hard to wake up, fill my coffe cup, I'm out the door. The freeway, standing still today, it's going to make me late, and that's for sure- and I was late- got an email about it and proceeded to cry about it for another hour. I'm running out of gas and out of time- I was literally below empty as I am chugging through Covington only to use the WRONG Kroger plus card so I can't get my 10cents off- I'm NEVER going to make it there by 9 (i.e. 730) There's gotta be something more- gotta be more than this- I need a little less hard times (i.e. please end these furloughs and have wm's student grant money come!), I need a little more bliss, I'm gonna take my chances taking a chance I might find what I'm looking for- There's gotta be something more."

"Five years (almost 5, off/on for 7) and there's no doubt that I'm burned out, I've had ENOUGH. So, now boss man, here's my two weeks (oh, believe me, I will be praising Him and smiling ear to ear when I get to hand him that wonderful piece of paper), I'll make it short and sweet, so listen up... I could work my life away but why? I've got things to do before I die (like raise a family and actually NOT die of stress.) There's gotta be something more, gotta be more than this, I need a little less hard times, I need a little more bliss, I'm gonna take my chances taking a chance I might find what I'm looking for, there's gotta be something more."

"Some believe in destiny and some believe in fate, but I believe that happiness is something we create, you best belive that I'm not going to wait, there's got to be something more! I get home 730 (actually around 6ish but still) the house is dirty, but it can WAIT... because right now, I need some down time to drink some red wine applejuice (i.e. play with logan) and celebrate."

I know there is something more than THIS! Something more than getting up at the CRACK of pitch blackness having to WAKE up my poor little sleeping booger to take him to his day time mommy just for me to get into the car, drive an hour and fifteen minutes (on a good day) work - unappreciated- for 9 hours then get back in the car drive for an hour and a half get my little boog and get home play with him for an hour or so and then put him to bed. REALLY get that, see my child for an hour- two hours a day... I pray that when William gets out of paramedic school we will be able to have our "something more" have our family back. I will give up all Christmas presents, birthday presents, gifts from now till eternity for that one precious gift of being able to have my boog-a-loog back, have him able to sleep until he is ready to get up, be able to fix him breakfast. What a beautiful dream. I pray that comes true and will give up anything and everything to make that happen and will respectfully and happilly turn in that two weeks notice when it does!